Showing posts with label Willingness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Willingness. Show all posts

Wednesday, November 11, 2015

Cross Reference


If any man will do his will,
he shall know of the doctrine,
whether it be of God,
or whether I speak of myself.

do:

will:

know:
TG Truth


He Shall Know of the Doctrine 

 

Friday, November 6, 2015

My Thoughts


I can do all things through Christ
which strengtheneth me.

I already shared a Conference talk related to my verse yesterday, but I love this one too much not to share as well:

“The Great and Wonderful Love”



Of the First Quorum of the Seventy




"Children in pure faith proclaim, “We believe in God, the Eternal Father, and in His Son, Jesus Christ, and in the Holy Ghost.” 1 But sometimes youth and adults do not feel the power of this simple declaration.
Satan is the “enemy to all righteousness”; 2 thus he plants doubts about the nature of the Godhead and our relationship with Them. Jesus Christ prophesied that in the last days even the very elect would be deceived. 3 Consider three examples of how Lucifer is “laying traps and snares to catch the holy ones of God.” 4
The snare of false inadequacy. A faithful young person feels unable to meet the expectations of others. At home and school, she is rarely praised and often criticized. The popular media tells her she is not beautiful enough or smart enough. Every day this righteous sister questions whether she is an individual worthy of Heavenly Father’s love, the Savior’s atoning sacrifice, or the Spirit’s constant guidance.
The snare of exaggerated imperfection. An outstanding missionary feels incapable of meeting the expectations of God. In his mind, this worthy elder imagines a stern Heavenly Father bound to irrevocable justice, a Savior capable of cleansing others’ transgressions but not this elder’s own, and a Holy Ghost unwilling to accompany an imperfect person.
The snare of needless guilt. A middle-aged woman is a devoted mother, a loving friend, a faithful Church servant, and a frequent temple patron. But in her heart, this sister cannot forgive herself of sins committed years ago that she has repented of and fully resolved with priesthood leaders. She doubts that her life will ever be acceptable to the Lord and has lost hope of eternal life in Heavenly Father’s presence.
If you have any thoughts and feelings similar to these good Saints, I invite you to become as a little child and feel again “the great and wonderful love made manifest by the Father and the Son in the coming of the Redeemer into the world.” 5 Childlike faith in the perfect love of Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ will “divide asunder” 6 Satan’s snares of inadequacy, imperfection, and guilt.
Proverbs teaches, “For as he thinketh in his heart, so is he.” 7 May I suggest—in addition to consistent prayers, scripture study, and Church and temple attendance—five changes to your thoughts and heart to more fully feel the tender love of God.
First, see yourself as a precious child of a loving Father in Heaven. Our children with confidence sing, “I am a child of God, and he has sent me here.” 8 Little children feel and know what perhaps you have forgotten. You are the beloved son or daughter of Heavenly Father, created “in his own image,” 9 and of immense value—so much so that Jesus Christ gave His life for you.
God the Father is merciful and has infinite love for you despite your faults. Only the voice of Satan will cause you to feel of no value. In contrast, the Holy Ghost will cause you to feel “godly sorrow” 10 unto repentance in a manner that fills you with hope of positive change.
When you feel worthless, “remember the worth of souls is great in the sight of God.” 11 Refrain from repeatedly thinking or saying negative words about yourself—there is a clear difference between humility and humiliation. Identify and use your unique talents rather than dwelling on your weaknesses.
Second, place your burdens on Jesus Christ. When you feel overwhelmed by expectations and challenges, do not fight the battle alone. Follow the example of small children, and drop to your knees in prayer.
Jesus Christ has commanded us, “Look unto me in every thought; doubt not, fear not.” 12 Doubt, fear, and worry indicate we have taken all of life’s burdens and anxieties on ourselves. When plagued by thoughts that you are inadequate, confidently say, “I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.” 13 Then as you “cheerfully do all things that lie in [your] power,” 14 you can rest assured that the Lord will do the remainder and things will work out all right.
The Savior promised, “Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” 15 As you “cast [your] burden upon the Lord,” 16 you will feel the peace of the Spirit. 17
Third, forgive yourself of sins and imperfections.  
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Fourth, sustain hope of eternal life 
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Fifth, find joy each day.  
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I testify of Heavenly Father, who in great and wonderful love reaches out to each of His children. I bear witness of Jesus Christ, who is “mighty to save” 29 us from our inadequacies, imperfections, and sins. I bear testimony of the Holy Ghost, who will accompany the imperfect yet penitent soul. To you faithful and worthy Saints who struggle with latter-day snares of the devil, 30 “may God grant unto you that your burdens may be light, through the joy of his Son.” 31 In the sacred name of Jesus Christ, amen."



I have been struggling with feelings of inadequacy. I don't know how I will ever realize the expectations I have for myself, to say nothing of the admonition to "be ye therefore perfect." Some days, I don't even know if I can fulfill such mundane tasks as doing the dishes or taking a shower, let alone teaching my children in love and patience. There are so many times that I fall so short of where I would like to be, and where I feel like I should be. It's painful.  

I do need to remind myself in those times that perhaps I am trying too much to do it by myself. Like a toddler unable to tie my shoes, I need to stop insisting on doing it all by myself. I need to allow my Savior to help me in all things so that I can receive His grace and strength. 

One of my favorite lines of hymn says:

...
Keep thou my feet; I do not ask to see
The distant scene--one step enough for me
...
I was not ever thus, nor pray'd that thou
Shouldst lead me on.
I loved to choose and see my path; but now,
Lead thou me on!
...
I need to keep telling myself that one step is enough for me, so long as I know that what I am doing is according to His will. I do not need all the answers, I only need to take that one step in faith. With the help of His immeasurable strength we will accomplish more than I ever imagined of myself alone.
Lead thou me on!

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Friday, October 9, 2015

My Thoughts


And now behold, I say unto you, my
brethren, if ye have experienced a
change of heart, and if ye have felt
to sing the song of redeeming love,
I would ask, can ye feel so now?

In C.S. Lewis' Screwtape Letters, he has a letter (#8) talking about spiritual undulations. It is natural for there to be troughs and peaks in our spiritual lives. In my verse, Alma is asking whether you can feel the same joy you felt when you're heart was first converted. In my experience, the answer will sometimes be "No." 

My own change of heart was a pretty strong experience. I have been a part of the Church all my life. I was baptized when I was 8, and I went to church every Sunday. But attending and being converted are two very different things. I was converted on September 4th, 2013. That is when I experienced my change of heart, and sang my song of redeeming love. This is what I wrote in my journal that day:

" 'Consider the lilies of the field,
how they grow, how they grow.
Consider the birds of the sky,
how they fly, how they fly.

He clothes the lilies of the field.
He feeds the birds of the sky,
And He will feed those who trust Him,
And guide them with his eye.

Consider the sheep of His fold,
How they follow where he leads.
Though the path may wind across the mountains,
He knows the meadows where they feed.

He clothes the lilies of the field.
He feeds the birds of the sky,
And He will feed those who trust Him,
And guide them with His eye.

Consider the sweet tender children
Who must suffer on this earth.
The pains of all of them He carried 
From the day of His birth.

He clothes the lilies of the field,
He feeds the lambs in His fold,
And He will heal those who trust Him,
And make their hearts as gold.' 

Today, I know that God loves me. 'Consider the Lilies' is my anthem, and one day, I want it sung at my funeral. I feel like it was written just for me so that I would have a powerful witness of God's love for me. Praise & Glory to God! I love Him!"

I won't tell you all of the details of the intensely personal witness I received (of which this song was a part), but I will tell you it was in response to a desperate prayer a few weeks earlier, "God, do you love me?" I was in the midst of a difficult, almost suicidal, depression when I gave that raw painful call to Him. 

I was not capable of receiving the answer right away. I was too raw, too frantic to feel the gentle nudgings of the Spirit. But during the following days and weeks, a scripture would come to my mind here and there. When I finally went to look them up, I became receptive enough to the Spirit to be led to more scriptures, this song, and to recall some specific experiences in my life. 

At the beginning, I was not thinking of my prayer, I was just acting on the impressions I was receiving. But when I was open enough to receive all the impressions, the response came to me that this was the answer to my prayer I had given weeks earlier. The feeling of Godly love came so swiftly and so strongly that I was overwhelmed. I cried, and I sang in my heart a song that had no words. 

I will never forget that day, and I do not believe I will ever forget that God lives and that He Loves Me

Back to Screwtape.

"He will set them off with communications of His presence which, though faint, seem great to them, with emotional sweetness, and easy conquest over temptation. But He never allows this state of affairs to last long. Sooner or later He withdraws, if not in fact, at least from their conscious experience, all those supports and incentives. He leaves the creature to stand up on its own legs-to carry out from the will alone duties which have lost all relish. It is during such trough periods, much more than during the peak periods, that it is growing into the sort of creature He wants it to be. Hence the prayers offered in the state of dryness are those which please Him best. ... He wants them to learn to walk and must therefore take away His and; and if only the will to walk is really there He is pleased even with their stumbles."

So, will we always feel the emotions we did at the time of our conversion? No. Even if we are doing everything right, the same thrill and intense emotion that accompanied that change of heart will not always be present. It cannot be if we are to be tested and to grow and improve. 

So why does Alma ask if we "can feel so now"? I have found that simply remembering my experience bolsters my testimony and gives me the strength to act. I can still "sing the song of redeeming love" through my thoughts and actions even if I'm not at the height of emotional intensity I was when I first experienced my change of heart. I believe that continuing to sing, even when it is difficult is pleasing to Him. 

It is when we stop singing, when we stop acting, and it is when we allow our self to doubt that we are in danger. It is when we forget. It is when we feel less and less willing to act on those rapturous revelations that we turn away.

"Can ye feel so now?" 

I would like to think that this question does not imply that we should be feeling ecstatically joyful every day in our life. I would like to think that this question implies that if we retain the feeling of willingness to act as we did in the beginning, we are on the right path.

Can you feel the same level of conviction and determination now that times are trying? Or do you require that emotional high to remain "spiritual"?  

Keep feeling the conviction. Keep feeling the willingness. Choose to act and the joy will come. Do not expect the joy to come before you act. The joy will return and light your way once again if you are faithful. And if you are faithful to the end, the joy will be eternal.